I need help! 🙁

I wonder if you can help me?  Maybe I just

Feeling fed up and looking for inspiration

Feeling fed up and looking for inspiration

need some words of encouragement?

 

The thing is, I have lost my ‘Mojo”

I am fedup!

The truth is that I have been feeling this way for some time now.. probably for at least six months and if I am honest it is really for over a year.  I then find some way of keeping busy, looking for a new interest, a course, a coach or some way of distracting me from my thinking.

My biggest problem here is that I am the one people come to for help, I am the one who is always positive!!!

So what can I do?  I have tried talking to myself and I have done some journalling, meditation, self hypnosis, given myself a good talking to!… but… still feeling this uncomfortable feeling inside.

i have attempted to change the feeling, change the colour, move it into the distance, ask it what it wants?,

but no joy… still feeling flat 🙁

And why?  I have a great life, my kids are happy, I love my hubby, we live in a great part of the world, the sun is shining, I keep fit.

I have lots of energy for exercise!  I love to walk in the sunshine, feel the sun on my body, walk the dogs, I love my little poodles.

Symptoms… I guess I get lonely at times.. I miss my family, I miss being Grandma, ok I am grandma but I miss seeing my grandson every day.  I miss my mum! I know that is crazy as she died 20 years ago, but I still miss being able to ring her up, have coffee with her, go shopping and just talk to her.  I would be talking to her now if I could, she would sort me out, lift my mood I am sure of that!

Funny thing is that I am talking to her right now, through writing my thoughts here, I know she is listening but it’s not enough, i want to see her, to hear her, to smell the smoke from her cigarette, to hear her laugh, to listen to her voice…

Ok, thats enough.  Time to be positive, (drums fingers on table), (sigh).. I should have had my newsletter out yesterday, will do it today, but where has my enthusiasm gone???

I feel guilty!!! guilty for not being motivated, feeling guilty for not being satisfied with my life.

I know what I would tell a client but it’s not working for me right now, so then I feel worse, so if its not working for me then why should I bother, why should it work for anyone else?

Now I feel scared, scared of publishing my thoughts as I might influence those of you who might be feeling down and were looking to me for inspiration!

But I am human, I have my ups and downs like everybody else.  Most of the time i have the ability to recognise a thought is just a thought and it is up to me to give energy to that thought.

Today I am wallowing in self pity, welcome to my pity party.  Tomorrow might be better, in fact,  I might just feel better after I have written my newsletter.  Cleaned the patio floor, done a pile of ironing and walked the dogs.

What helps you to feel better when you have moments of feeling low?

I really would appreciate hearing your comments.

If there is one thing that would put a smile on my face today, it would be that just one person read my blog here and responded in a positive way.  To give me an idea, a suggestion that might help not just me, but anyone else who happens to read this blog who is feeling fed up!