I’ve got covid and all alone in a cabin away from home!
I’ve got covid and all alone in a cabin away from home!
Why did the problem arise?
Before travelling to the UK in April I was diligent at keeping my distance, wearing a mask and even isolating as insurance against contacting covid, so entering the UK felt like walking into a warzone due to the recent tweaks in Covid restrictions and I initially felt vulnerable cautious and hyperaware of staying safe and well.
Amazingly, I stayed healthy, had heaps of fun with family and friends and ticked off too fabulous events with colleagues, including a hypnotic lunch in Manchester with Sheila Granger and members of the Hypnosis Growth Club, plus an awe-inspiring connection with Steve & Amy Hardison at the TUCL (The Ultimate Coach London) event, held at a glamorous location in London with an audience of almost 500 people.
Imagine This…
So here I am continuing my planned journey in the UK, including a memorable face to face hypnosis session with an online client before heading to Bingley for a long awaited catch up with family including lots of laughter hugs and love, when the text message came through with the devastating news: ‘I’m really sorry Mum, I’ve tested positive for Covid!’
So what now?
The organised plan included me heading to the Lake District for my third and final event before travelling back to Australia. The kids were joining me for a short memorable holiday and we were all excited for the trip.
As well as quality family time, I was meeting Freddy & Anthony Jacquin in person together with a bunch of friends who are part of the Jacquin hypnosis community.
So many thoughts flashed through my mind including:
Are you ok?
Oh no, have I given my family Covid?
Do I have Covid?
It’s too late to cancel the Cabin
The kids can’t join me now
Should I attend the retreat?
Decision made
My family seemed remarkably unconcerned at the news, we continued our heart warming evening and I left for the Lakes the following morning after receiving a negative test for Covid and feeling reassured as my daughter was ok other than a continuous headache and a crushing sadness at not being able to join me.
I confess to a headful of thought as I continued my journey, was my pride taking over? was I making a mistake, am I an idiot? am I stupid? I checked google and covid rules in the UK and backed by the legitimate reports plus, I didn’t have Covid and hadn’t seen my daughter for a couple of days, surely I was ok?
Arrived
The cabin was as stunning and the views would have been captivating, but I couldn’t enjoy the scenery as my heart was aching, I felt lonely knowing the kids wouldn’t be joining me and I would have to travel back to the UK without seeing them until my next visit.
Even so, I settled in quickly and headed to the hotel where everyone was gathering for the start of the event I wore a mask and headed straight to the Jacquin’s to admit my predicament, when asked if I had any symptoms, I quite honestly answered ‘none’ and they said to ditch the mask and gave me a hug.
The weekend was sensational, the Jacquin’s have created a wonderful hypnotic community of like-minded hypnotists who are passionate about helping people through the magic of hypnosis. I learned a few groovy new techniques and was distracted from missing my family over the weekend.
A group of amazing hypnotists connecting and having fun!
Monday
I woke early, the feeling was subtle at first, just a runny nose, but I had this innate sense of alarm, I took a covid test and immediately wished I hadn’t! the emerging image was clear along with the evidence that I had Covid. What should I do now?
I felt like a leper, It was fine when I tested negative, I truly felt safe, unstoppable, but now the terrifying evidence was obvious. I felt dirty, the horror of exposing others to covid felt intense. I informed the jacquin’s and they alerted everyone. I honestly don’t think I infected anyone and If I did I sincerely apologise.
They say good things come out of bad and the huge positive experience of Covid meant that my trip home for a week and was able to spend an extra week with my grandchildren, as it turned out had all contacted covid, with varying symptoms and experienced the novelty of isolation together.
Outcome
My fear of experiencing Covid was much worse than actually having it, but I know for some their reality is devastating.
Sometimes the rules are not clear, and at times when we want something badly, it’s difficult to clarify the difference between the noise in the head and the wisdom in the heart.
Looking back it’s easy for me to see how my pride and need to attend the retreat may have influenced my decision making process.
Sometimes, we win and sometimes we learn. We are not here to be perfect, we are here to learn and grow in our wisdom. If we always got it right what would there be to learn?
and finally, I know how the mind works, how we see things as we are not as it is. In the middle of the night when I was feeling ill with a loud buzzing in my head and knowing I had Covid, I was truly scared, I had thoughts of how was I going to cope, how would I drive back to York when I felt sick and dizzy. In those moments I was lost in my own insecure thinking.
Even when I felt scared and alone, It was as if there was a deeper me, the wise one, who was watching me and telling me it was ok, no matter what the physical reality in that moment.
I eventually ignored the urgent scary thoughts and even though I felt ill and with the advise of my hubby in Australia, who is my rock and listened without judging when I was calling him with an update of my symptoms, I packed the car and set off for the 3 hour journey knowing I could pull up at the side of the road if I was too ill to focus.
And as I knew would happen, as soon as my icky urgent thinking was distracted by driving, the symptoms subsided, yes I still had covid and a head cold but with being distracted from the thinking and focusing on the drive, I felt better.
Can you remember times when you have been lost in scary thoughts, then been distracted and found yourself feeling more at ease?
Stay safe and well!
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